Day 1: Something You Hate About Yourself
Wow, this is a really hard one. Let's see:
I really hate being sick. While people say it's "not me", it is. It puts everything on hold, makes everything more difficult, and makes me feel useless at times.
I feel like it's MY FAULT for getting this way. I pushed myself too hard, lived a rough life (drinking, partying every night), ignored my health, and this is what I get for it.
I hate the constant aches, the headaches, the muscle spasms. They are getting better with medication and injections, but I'll never feel "normal" or "strong".
And then.....I hate that I let my illness(es) get me down! They ARE NOT me! I didn't cause them, they are genetic! I hate that I'll just lay on the couch rather than fight them!
So there you have it, I hate the dichotomy of my feelings towards my illness. And I didn't know that until I just wrote it.